本論文將陳玉慧《你是否愛過》、《巴伐利亞的藍光》兩本旅記定位在找尋真實自我的存在旅程，本文先回溯其童年無愛匱缺的情結，再透過存在主義對人類「在世存有」處境的思考與解答，來回應自身的存在疑惑。旅行不斷跨越文化疆界，將自我逼向脫離日常生活方式的臨界點，來獲取回視自我的超越目光。形式上作者探用斷碎的即景片段、客觀第三者的視角捕捉現代社會的荒謬，以體現人生存習而不察的真實窘況。旅程結束，作者選擇以寫作為存在的意義，掙脫被棄擲於世的命定，找到自我的真實存在。

This paper is focus on searching the real ego existence during a journey according to Mrs. Chen Yu-Hui's two travel literature books. This paper is flashback to the complex of complete full love from her childhood. Furthermore, the author gives the thought and answer of the situation of human being-in-the-world by existentialism to response the doubt of the existence of reflexivity. Yu-Hui traveled across the borders of different cultures and pushed herself to the liminal different from usual living to obtain the ego of introspection. The author observes the absurdity of modern society in fragmental scenes and objective third-person narration points of view to show human being in the real blind situation. At the end of journey, Yu-Hui chose writing as the meaning of existence and discovered her real existence by escaping from thrownness.