本文旨在探討傳統社會文化與童年逆境經驗如何影響研究者的自我認同及其之後
的婚姻與生涯。再者，透過靈性與心理諮商等修正性經驗療癒創傷的歷程，看到研究者
的蛻變與轉化。
本文採用自我敘說的方式來探究。研究者針對家庭背景、童年經歷、婚姻狀態、生
涯轉換，以及各個面向的療癒來陳述自己的生命故事。
在探究之後，研究者看到了家族中代代相傳的文化規範束縛，以及不敢抗爭的聽話
順從。自我批判的聲音與不斷討好的性格掩蓋了真實的自我，讓個體無法健全成長，出
現各種身心症狀。好在修正性經驗介入，讓個體經驗到尊重與接納，進而重新建構自信。
並透過角色楷模學習，去了解如何關愛自己和別人。因為懂了，所以涵容。研究者不再
責備自己無能，也不再埋怨別人的拒絕與操控，能重新與自己和別人和睦相處。

This study explores how traditional social culture and childhood adversity experiences affect researcher's self-identity and subsequent marriages and careers. Furthermore, through
corrective experiences such as spiritual and psychological counseling, we can see the
researcher’s transformation.
This study uses a self-narrative approach. Researcher divide her stories into five parts:
the first part is her family background; the second part is the childhood experience; the third
part is the marital status after adulthood; the fourth part is the process of career transition; and
the fifth part is her healing experience in various aspects.
After the narration, the researcher saw the shackles of culture and ethics passed down
from generation to generation in the family, as well as obedience and obedience that feared
conflict. The voice of self-criticism and the character of constant flattery cover up the true
self, so that the individual cannot grow up soundly, and various physical and mental
symptoms begin to appear. Fortunately, new corrective experiences are involved later,
allowing researcher to experience unconditional respect and acceptance, and then she can
reconstruct her self-identification. And by learning from role models, she can rediscover how
to care for herself and others. Because I understand, I can cover it. Researcher no longer
blame herself for incompetence, no longer resent the rejection or manipulation of others, and can live in harmony with herself and others again.